As I am writing this post Mrs. Smith is on her way from Luton Airport to our home. She went back to Hungary for 4 days, in the meantine I lost 2kg (I did not eat-cook properly for myself - this figures), and now my lonely time is over, she'll be with me in no time. 

Yesterday I was doing some policing, from 7pm till 23:30, but it was a quiet night even it was Friday, not much happened. Not sure if I should be happy for it or not. Anyway. 

I had a horrible week at work, I got to the point when I was thinking about resigning. This place is ridiculously unorganized and I am being given more and more responsibilities. They don't realise, or do not want to realise the company grew in the last year yet I am still the only voice engineer dealing with all the extremely difficult voice issues on a poorly documented network. I cannot handle this workload and constant supervision. Imagine when your project priorities changing every day depending on the boss gave you that task. There are no real achievable deadlines set, but everything needs to be ready for "yesterday". I am getting fedup. There are only two good things keep me staying with this company. 1. MONEY (they pay great money) 2. LOCATION (I work from home) Because of the location I don't have to move away from here, so I can do policing and socialize with our friends. These things would be difficult to just leave behind. Getting another job in this town in Telecoms has no chance at all.

Today we had a great badminton game, I can see the team is improving so the games are getting harder to win which I love. Great competition. Also at the sport centre we go every weekend the people work there already know us very well and this is a nice thing when you go somewhere where you are being treated as friends and not "only" customers.

I did not have much time to check the news on the internet because of my busy week, so I need to make up for it over the weekend. I am reading several blogs, written by other Hungarian expats in the UK. It is good to read about their different approach to life and see how to try to ge on with it. There is a guy actually who is a typical idiot and I believe he writes his blog for the constant feedback. He also asks for other people's opinion, but he never follows any good advice. A bit arrogant to be fair.

My favourite part in his view, that he believes the cars being made nowadays are ALL shit. And the best ones are the over 10 year old ones (his quite narrow minded in this topic to be honest). I should not bother but what I never liked is the human stupidity and I can see it comes in many forms. I told him, I rather take my chances and drive a nice compfortable 2 year old car and have an accident (hope not), than constantly worrying about a 10 year old car service status and safety features. Either way you spend money for your car, however I rather pay more just to avoid the constant worrying. 

I know today's product are not built to last, however how do you call a person who questions the improvment and invetions of the modern times? And the funny thing, since I told him that I think this was bullshit that he constantly try to prove that I am wrong. Weirdo. 

Anyway, the things I am focusing on are the following: I will have High Risk Police Safety training in a week. (baton fights, excercises, wrist-hand locks, etc), also cannot wait for Samsung to release Gingerbread 2.3 Android update for my phone. And also I would need to start increasing my hours I do for the police, because they are not enough for my improvement.

I had a chat with one of my friend during the badminton training and she told me she was trying to change her life and she already blamed everything without even trying anything to do. This got me thinking, I always see chance and opportunity in almost everything. (wasn't always like this). I noticed, that I do like challenge (maybe too much) and I sometimes feel I have an urge to constantly prove something for myself or for the world. Policing is one thing amongst many others. Although I love doing it I need to fight my demons first in order to go there and do it. I found this approach highly productive. I think we should all fight our demons and leave our fears behind to go forward. I know it is not easy, but at the end the satisfaction is great.